Pretty much every person that I’ve ever trusted in my life has emotionally or physically abused me at some point. I finally left the town I came from a little over a year ago and moved in with my boyfriend.
Getting out of that town has been the best thing to ever happen to me. I no longer have to drive passed the place my innocence was ripped away from me at 16 years old. I don’t have constant reminders of the relationship that drove me to try and jump out of a moving vehicle at 70mph just to get away from my abuser. Yes, it was that serious and I was that mentally unstable. Thank god for growth, am I right? Relationships after that failed because I wasn’t accepting my trauma and learning to grow from it. BUT I’m so glad they did because now I have the most amazing person to spend my life with. He supports and loves me unconditionally and I have never felt so calm and at peace around someone. Thank you for grounding me. The point though is that I AM growing. Even if I’m not posting it and even if I’m not updating you on my life in messages, I am working on me constantly. I’m making a lot of progress, but just because you don’t see it doesn’t mean I’m not making progress.
If you read this far thank you. I hope this helps you understand me a little better and that if you’ve been through the same things that you’re healing as well.
Payton Moore | @pkm18 Cory Wood | @daddy_leica