trembling

your hands are rough 

trembling 

you cannot stay still

you are so uncomfortable 

sitting with yourself

that you must keep moving 

because staying in one place

for too long might mean 

you have to face the pain 

of your life choices

the very reasons 

you 

cannot 

stop

moving

you’re exhausted 

you’re ignoring your needs 

is it so painful to be? 

self-sabotage reeks like a 

musty, dark, hopeless fog

following you

everywhere 

you cannot escape it 

because you

are running 

from you

-𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒏 𝒃𝒚 𝑺𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒉 𝑴𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂

Lucy Blue in a beautiful piece designed by Lisa Hoang and photographed by Caroline Lawless.